Monday, July 11, 2005
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>amen(AMEN).
you know if someone told me yesterday that i'de jump fivenine and get third i would have been okay with it;
but today it just seems so usless& so pathetic& so unfufulling,
and there is no next year or the year after because i'll never
never,
be able to keep up with matthew& vincent& dickson,
how incredibly heartbreaking.
aww what the hell i dont care after this nationals i'm going to train and train and train and even if i cant beat matthew at least i wont get eaten (like today);
but the most painful part is that i'll (probably) never get to see her again (at least not properly)
and so i fall, i’ll let my heartbeat drop//
i falter as the music stops& you watch me as i stall.
&you could be my heroin;;the end:
